Living a Dream

This is going to be a little off subject for me as most of you will see after reading but just felt the need to share.

Over the years, I have not had the best life and you know there are times when a person really wonders why does God let you keep living or what is your purpose in life - you know those kind of thoughts - well I have to share an experience that has happened to me and hopefully will give someone a little hope.

Brought up as a kid with being molested, having a first marriage of physical abuse and then a second one of verbal - I really had come to think in my life - "Why me Lord?"  But you know what – THERE IS HOPE, everyone.

I am living proof that if you leave things in God's hands he does listen and answers your prayers.  All the years that I was getting abused, there was this part of me buried that kept telling me that it will get better - this is not how life is supposed to be and this is sure not how I wanted to keep living my life.

After many years of blaming myself for everything, even after hearing in therapy it was not, (I don't know about most of you that might be in this situation) I had a vision - a picture in my head of how a person should be treated by a man and it sure was NOT what I had been experiencing all my life.

Well, the saying of never say never holds true because I was one of them - I even wrote on my MySpace page years ago that I would like to find ONE man to prove that they were not all the same.  Imagine that.

I gave up, stopped looking and then God sent me that man when I wasn't expecting it.  So I felt the need to write and tell anyone that has been through what I went thru to NOT give up.  Keep praying.  Keep dreaming.  They are out there - sometimes it just takes God longer to find them for us - I had to wait till I was 58 - and I can die happy tomorrow because I did get to have that experience with that ONE man.  That ONE man is out there - don't give up.