My Roller Coaster Ride

by Aviskaar Dwivedi Student
I am a recovering addict; I was a student of class 8th when I was diagnosed with ADHD. This started my unending journey to psychiatrists and psychologists. I was given medication and was told to work on my concentration abilities. Instead of working to get better I started  smoking cigarettes( introduced  to me by  senior in school whom I had befriended in  basketball classes). Cigarettes soothened my nerves temporarily but soon I wanted something stronger. I was introduced to the world of marijuana. The first drag was when I was 16 years old. I fell in love with it and wanted to consume more with each passing day, soon marijuana started consuming me. Initially, I was doing it with friends, to be recognized as cool and happening but what started as recreation became an obsession.

I was never a great student but had always managed to pass. My report card started showing F grades .This was not enough, soon other activities   became boring and tedious and only drug and thought of using it excited me. I started stealing, lying , became socially withdrawn .My parents were like aliens to me whom  I resented the most    .I did not want  anything to do with them so I decided to move out ,not considering that all this while they were supporting me financially . Without any means to finance my drug abuse I got into peddling which not only took care of my drugs but provided for my basic living.

On one such assignments I was caught by  law enforcement   agency and was  arrested .I spent few weeks in jail ,those few days were turning point in my  directionless journey of drugs shared my cell with hard core criminals, rapists and  murderers. I realized that my life was also about to take a similar turn of events if I did not stop.

My parents bailed me out and I was instructed to join a rehabilitation program that is where Tulasi came into my life and I was enrolled in their program .the ride was topsy- turvy ,some days I wanted  to  be clean but others days I wanted to run away and go back to my  care free world of euphoria and non answerability.  The team at Tulasi health care was caring, compassionate and understanding. They were non judgmental and steered me to introspect myself.

I was discharged on medication and was advised follow up and attend group therapy sessions.

It’s been 3 months since my discharge try not to meet with my old group of friends. I am trying to interact and bond with my family. I do get tempted once in a while but, I call my doctor and counselors or engage in a constructive activity.

Every day I get up and tell myself today I will remain clean, I don’t know about to-morrow.

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About Aviskaar Dwivedi Junior   Student

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Joined APSense since, April 12th, 2014, From Delhi, India.

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